Sunday, June 13, 2010

my BIG BIG God

Sometime around four months ago, something changed. For whatever reason I started having some unhappy health issues. At first I thought they were a temporary thing. An inconvenience but something that would go away. Only they haven't. Instead they have continued to make their presence known and have hijacked my life at most inconvenient times. (Is there ever a "convenient" time to be ill?) I've begun to refer to these times as moments of "meltdown."

Unfortunately, Monday was a meltdown day. Not a good day at all. However, after a day or two, I picked myself up and tried resuming my normal (whatever that is) activities. Life, after all, doesn't stop. Fast forward to Saturday morning. I was working on Saturday and was the opening manager. Imagine my unhappiness when I woke up with "that" feeling. I began to get ready for work, taking my medicines, moving slowly but surely, reminding myself that just because I wake up with "that" feeling does not mean that I am headed toward a "meltdown." Finally, I decided that it was safe to leave the house and head off to work. I realized that I had not read my devotion that morning. I am currently using Sarah Young's Jesus Calling and the past two days had been very comforting, beginning with the phrases "rest in me" and "trust me." As I sat on the side of my bed, praying that I was going to be able to make it through the work day, these were the words I read:

Let Me help you get through this day. There are many possible paths to travel between your getting up in the morning and your lying down at night. Stay alert to the many choice-points along the way, being continually aware of My Presence. You will get through this day one way or the other. One way is to moan and groan, stumbling along with shuffling feet. This will get you to the end of the day eventually, but there is a better way. You can choose to walk with Me along the path of peace, leaning on Me as much as you need. There will still be difficulties along the way, but you can face them confidently in My strength. Thank Me for each problem you encounter, and watch to see how I transform trials into blessings. Jesus Calling...Sarah Young...June 12th

The moment I read those words, it was as if a weight had been lifted from my heart. A measure of peace filled my soul and I laughed out loud. I left the house and headed off to work with a measure of comfort and joy that I desperately needed. My God loves me. Once again, He knew exactly what I needed to hear on that day. And He orchestrated the moment. For me. Is it any wonder that I love Him so?