Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
This appears to be an apt description of my life at the moment. (I suspect it's an adverse reaction to cold medication. So I guess I need to decide if I prefer cold symptoms or sleep.)
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Or this little boy.It certainly doesn't seem like he should be taller than me now. Or planning his junior year of high school or turning sixteen in a couple of weeks. Since he's my baby, it's so hard to let him go. And bless his little (big) heart, I have the feeling I'll be embarrassing the daylights out of him over the next few weeks as he approaches the big birthday. Hopefully he'll have patience with his mother's sentimental heart!
Monday, January 28, 2008
After all the heartbreaking stories on her blog the other day, she saw the need to post the stories of women who have found victory and broken free of their bondage. I am so grateful that these women have their freedom to celebrate and hope to one day be among them.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there You would guide me. With Your right hand You would hold me. I could say, "The darkness will hide me. Let the light around me turn into night." But even the darkness is not dark to You. The night is as light as the day; darkness and light are the same to You.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
1) What one thing threatens you most with bondage? Try to be specific. If your answer is intimate in nature, then use code language. I'll get what you're trying to say.
2) What is your biggest obstacle to living freely and fully in Christ? (Please don't give the answer you think you're supposed to give. Really share what you think holds you back.)
At the time that I posted my comment, there were already 261 responses. I am certain that there will be many more. I felt compelled to answer and after I posted my response, I began to read some of the other responses. And all I could think was that there are a lot of women hiding a lot of baggage. Struggling to get free. In some pitiful way, I am grateful for the company but mostly I am heartbroken that so many of my siestas carry such heavy burdens. I know this isn't what God has intended for His children. So, my siestas, if you left your burden there, please know that I am praying for you. God bless!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Anyway, if I were to be totally irresponsible with eight hundred dollars, I might take a trip to Disney World. Or buy some purses. Or buy a bunch of books. Or get my nails done twenty times. Or buy cheese fries more times than my little brain can calculate without the help of a machine. Or I could get a puppy. (Nope, no more puppies.) Or I could do some combination of the above. I suspect dh would want another tv. A bigger one. Not that the one we have isn't big enough. It's just that dh is a guy (thank goodness!) and more electronics seem to be a guy thing. Something about plasma (isn't that a blood thing?) hd (isn't that dh in reverse?) and a bunch of other stuff (1080? a house number? street address?) that makes no sense to me.
However, since we seem to be in the "responsible" phase of our lives, I suspect that we will pay down our medical debt and be grateful for the blessing of extra money. What would you do to "stimulate" the economy?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
In direct contrast to the weather, we worked on decorating the vacation bible school area of the store today. This year's theme is "Outrigger Island" which is very tropical. So MJ and I spent a good portion of the day hanging grass skirts, putting up ocean backdrops and "sandy beaches", making a "flip flop" trail down the aisle, and making sea turtles. No snow in sight. We enjoyed ourselves. Especially the sea turtle "creating". The craft is actually designed for 3 to 5 year olds so you can imagine that MJ and I had a little trouble with it. Spreading glue on things that weren't supposed to be glued, feet that weren't even and stuff like that. Maybe we need to go back to taking arts and crafts classes. Gluing 101 or something. It's days like this that make work fun. (And I didn't even tell you about the giant hair bow I made for me to wear out of leftover Hawaiian print tablecloth plastic. And I shamelessly wore it for about thirty minutes. Got some real strange looks too. MJ made a sash out of her material. I still think they should be happy that we didn't put on grass skirts!) I think we made the most out of our full moon day. And now it's off to do up the undone. Never a dull moment around here.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
We went to the Saturday service at church tonight. I think I mentioned that Max Lucado was preaching this evening and tomorrow. He did an amazing job preaching John 3:16. What was even more amazing to me was that he had preached his brother's funeral this morning before flying here for the service tonight. So if you have a moment and want to offer up a prayer for his brother's family, I'm sure it would be appreciated.
Friday, January 18, 2008
In the mean time, we have a normal weekend planned around here. Grocery shopping, laundry, ironing, nagging The Boy about the state of his room, looking for new curtains for the living room, staying warm. It's supposed to be really cold this weekend. I think I might want to just stay in and huddle under the covers. But our cupboards are bare and the natives want food. So someone will have to venture out at some point to restock the pantry.
I spoke to my SIL this evening about our vacation plans. I have the opportunity to work the Deeper Still event in Atlanta this summer and my SIL is going to work it as well. After we finish up there, we will be heading to the beach! I honestly can't think of a better combination. Priscilla, Beth and Kay and then the ocean! Some of my favorite stuff. (And my SIL isn't too bad either.) We're talking about visiting some lighthouses as well. If I had the money (and less creaky bones) I'd buy a lighthouse and make it our home. I love lighthouses. I think I'd want one in Maine or somewhere that had fierce winter storms so I could watch the winter seas rush up against the rocks. I guess it would probably be really cold though. And dh would just as soon have a lighthouse in Hawaii. Which is fine too but I don't think they have fierce winter storms. We'll have to check that out the next time we go. Which will probably be in about four years. For that magical twenty-fifth anniversary. Thirty will be the trip. To Italy. So I have nine years to learn Italian.
I suppose I've rambled enough. It's probably time to move on to more productive things. Like requesting library books. Or cleaning the kitchen. Enjoy the evening!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
We had snow this morning! It was pretty and brief. Since we had already had our traditional "snow shock" earlier this week, there were only a few accidents. And the snow was gone by noon. I did take a couple of pictures of it as I was leaving the house. I'll try to post them later.
The Boy and Cinderella are both waiting for the computer so I guess I'd better finish up. Wouldn't want to stand in the way of another exciting entry in The Boy's spanish blog. Nor am I going to lose my temper over the crack that Cinderella just made. Because my hormonal moment is over. Over. I promise.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
This is a Mandevilla from our backyard. Mr. (or Miss) Mandevilla is also currently residing indoors. I think this particular plant is in the "train" room. (It's hard to tell. They all look so "brown" about now.)
Monday, January 14, 2008
Anyway, back to Sunday. (Let me just take this moment to throw in..."I love my church!") Our pastor has been doing a series titled "What's the Story?" They have this little quote in the bulletin thing that we get. "While all of life starts with God's story, the beauty comes when His story intersects with yours."
This weeks sermon was titled Your Story. Dave had asked for emails giving our stories in a hundred words or less and he was going to draw parts of them for his sermon. Apparently somewhere along the way, he changed his mind and invited seventeen "stories" to share their story via tape with our congregation. (I would totally be freaking out here because we have a big congregation!) So yesterday's sermon was a mixture of Dave and these seventeen clips. And they were powerful. The funny thing was that they weren't all dramatic or traumatic. Some were powerful in their simplicity. Just ordinary people (like me) who surrendered to Jesus and are continuing to use their lives as he sees fit. Some made us laugh, some made us cry. We were so proud of the ones who obviously overcame hardships. Then, there was the last one. There is a lady in our church who has cerebral palsy. She has spent her life struggling to be understood. I am sure that it has been frustrating and painful at times for her. And yet, she has such a sweet spirit. (She comes in the store from time to time so I know this personally.) The final thing she said was, "My disability doesn't define me....my Jesus does!" And we cried. What a blessing. I think we all have something that we could insert in that sentence besides "disability" and I would hope that it doesn't define us either. Our Jesus does.
Michael O'Brien (from NewSong) has been helping write the words and music for our Easter Pageant this year. He closed that portion of the sermon with the song And the Story Goes On.
This is a part of the chorus:
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Speaking of The Boy, he seems to be doing some better. He made a conscious effort to eat some yesterday and he ate some breakfast. We are planning on tempting him with his favorite food for lunch. Hopefully, knowing he can stay home if he feels sick will prompt him into eating. The mind is a tricky thing and it's hard to battle something that is in your head. But I do appreciate your prayers.
Well, we are a' Wal-marting so I'd better go. Happy Saturday to you!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
However, two summers ago we drove to Atlanta on our way to Disney World. During the trip, we discovered (the hard way) that he developed motion sickness. The trip was rather traumatic for him (and mom) and he and I spent a lot of time just walking around Disney World, not riding anything. Now, you have to understand that I am no stranger to anxiety issues. My daughter has had panic attacks for many years. She has an attack, recovers and moves forward. The Boy is a little different. He develops a few "tics' that present when he has anxiety. And he avoids the thing that caused the anxiety. Another thing you need to understand is that when reflux people get sick, it causes their reflux to flare up more. Which causes pain and that sensation that you are going to be sick again. So that summer, The Boy stopped eating. Because he was afraid if he ate, he would get sick. Oh, he would eat some crackers or some cheese and drink ensure, but overall he ate very little. He ended up losing twenty seven pounds and looked like he was starving. We made several trips to the doctor, tried different medicines, (had the nurse accuse him of being anorexic...which he wasn't.) did daily weigh ins to track his weight, avoided trigger foods, and finally, after three months or so, he began to slowly eat more normally again. (He really did want to eat, he was just afraid to.) So for the last year or so he has been the typical teenager. Eating, grazing, whatever you want to call it.
Until Christmas. I guess he was eating foods that he normally shouldn't or wouldn't and apparently that caused his reflux to start acting up again. Which triggered some anxiety. Which I was aware of. What I didn't know was that he apparently has stopped eating. Again. Because he's afraid he'll get sick. I know it's only been a few days, but I can tell (now that I've noticed) that he is losing weight. So tonight we talked about restricting his diet to avoid the trigger foods, taking his reflux medicine, carrying meds with him for his IBS, weighing in, and anxiety. Which is really the culprit here. He did eat some plain toast and drink some water. I guess tomorrow I will get some Boost. And if things don't improve over the weekend, we will be off to the doctor's on Monday.
So if you get a moment and would be so inclined, I would appreciate any prayers you might offer our way.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Well, I just got in from work (it was my night to close) and I have family to visit with, (dogs who want to eat), scripture to read, and a few chores to do. Have a wonderful evening!
Monday, January 7, 2008
It was good being back to work. I did get my desk cleared off and caught up on my emails before I left today. (There were only 73 waiting for me this time. I think that makes a total of 271 during my two month absence.) I started processing three conference requests, including one with Priscilla Shirer who apparently will be here in two weeks. (I have yet to see any publicity on this but I also haven't been looking.) Then I got two of the three waiting employee reviews done before the deadline. (The deadline's tomorrow and they have been sitting in my computer for um...two months...but who's counting.) I was happy to see everyone and everyone seemed happy to see me. (for the moment.) And now I am back in my happy little home. Where the dogs have missed me and the plumber has come and gone. Again. There's laundry and dishes to do and school starts back tomorrow for a certain young man. (who needs to shave before he gets detention for having facial hair!) I guess life is back to normal after all.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
1. I will continue with my daily devotions, prayer time, and scripture reading even though it means getting up earlier.
2. I will go to bed earlier at night so I can get up earlier.
3. I will be better organized before I go to bed so that the mornings will go smoother.
4. I will continue to fix family meals three nights a week. (That's what slow cookers and better planning is for.)
5. I will have a schedule for laundry and housework so that it doesn't all pile up at the end of the week.
6. I will still make time to play video games with my fifteen year old son and dream wedding dreams with my nineteen year old daughter.
7. I will always love my husband.
I'm sure that there will be more things added and knowing me, I am sure that I will want to take some things off the list too. This has been a good time for me. (Maybe not "good time" as in fun, though.) I've learned how to be still. I think if my surgery had gone the way that it normally does, I would have been up and running around and would have missed out on some life lessons. The whole internal bleeding thing really has been a blessing. I learned to be still because I had no choice. I learned how much I am cared for because every time I tried to do anything, I got fussed at or over. I learned (the hard way) that when I tried to do something, it made my husband feel as if I was saying he couldn't take care of me. People voluntarily came and sat with me to make sure I didn't fall and hit my head. Or whatever it is that people with blood loss do. They brought meals, they transported my son, they did laundry, cared for our zoo, and they cleaned my house. While I sat and learned to be still.
I sat and read countless blogs written by women who are trying to be the women that God would want them to be. They have inspired me to be a better wife, mother, and child of God. They have made me laugh and made me cry. And I hope, as I return back to work, that I will be returning a better wife, mother, and child of God. So I guess tomorrow is my new year. And I am excited.
Friday, January 4, 2008
I am working through Beth Moore's "Jesus: 90 Days with the One and Only" and last night's lesson (okay the title should have been "what I learned yesterday") was day 14 Waist-Deep in Glory. It is about John baptizing Jesus. She has a little narrative that she has written (don't you just love it when she does that?) about what John might have been thinking when Jesus approached him. There is a statement in the narrative that struck me like a board up the side of my head (or heart). She says or rather John says, " I had been preparing for Him all my life, and yet I was not ready." Wow, what an eye opener. I mean, I know that I have not spent my entire life preparing for Him. And sometimes, as I do prepare for Him, I do a half hearted job. If someone like John (I know this is fiction, but bear with me) could live the way he did, pleasing in the eyes of God, trying to do what was right, knowing what his purpose was from the beginning, and still feel that he was not ready, what hope is there for me? It certainly made me stop and evaluate what I am doing and if I am truly striving towards becoming the woman that He would have me to be. I think that's such a big thought that maybe I will have to put off learning anything else for a few days!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
I am taking my niece with me to the salon this morning. She will be getting a "nail color change". (Auntie is too cheap...or too poor...to get the child a manicure. Hey, she's only eight.) My sil decided that she had to have a pedicure so we're making it a family outing. I don't get to see either of them very often so I will enjoy this outing. (although I am a little nervous about an eight year old running around a salon. Since she's not my child, though, I can just smile indulgently and pretend that she's with someone else! Actually, she's very well behaved. I'm just wondering if she'll have too much time on her hands. Maybe I should bring along my Hello Kitty hair dryer.)
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
I am working my way through "Jesus: 90 days with the One and Only" by Beth Moore. I should finish it up close to Easter. Years ago, when I did the bible study, I finished it during the Easter season as well. I had the hardest time doing the week leading up to the crucifixion. I just knew they were going to kill Him. And every day just brought me one step closer to His death. And my part in it. I mean, I knew that the Resurrection was coming. But I could hardly bear to let Him die. For me. It was awful. And yet beautiful at the same time. It was a wonderful reminder of not only the gift but the cost.
I also decided that rather than attend a semester bible study at church (one of those "know your limitations" things) that I would participate in the Engage the Journey 2008 study online where we are reading through the Bible chronologically. I am happy to say that I haven't missed a day so far! I need to connect with some people who will hold me accountable. I am guessing the blog will help with that. I am very excited about participating. I'll be praying that God will give me a desire for His word. And that I will have the ears to hear.
And by the way, it's snowing! Not much, but it counts!