Sounds like the beginning of a back to school essay. But it's not. I promise.
I am working through Beth Moore's "Jesus: 90 Days with the One and Only" and last night's lesson (okay the title should have been "what I learned yesterday") was day 14 Waist-Deep in Glory. It is about John baptizing Jesus. She has a little narrative that she has written (don't you just love it when she does that?) about what John might have been thinking when Jesus approached him. There is a statement in the narrative that struck me like a board up the side of my head (or heart). She says or rather John says, " I had been preparing for Him all my life, and yet I was not ready." Wow, what an eye opener. I mean, I know that I have not spent my entire life preparing for Him. And sometimes, as I do prepare for Him, I do a half hearted job. If someone like John (I know this is fiction, but bear with me) could live the way he did, pleasing in the eyes of God, trying to do what was right, knowing what his purpose was from the beginning, and still feel that he was not ready, what hope is there for me? It certainly made me stop and evaluate what I am doing and if I am truly striving towards becoming the woman that He would have me to be. I think that's such a big thought that maybe I will have to put off learning anything else for a few days!